I know my time is running out as far as Leo doing as I say not as I do and I don't want to see him pick up my awful habits. Also, it's disappointing to me that I will bend over backwards to make sure he is getting a well-rounded, nutritious and sensible diet and I won't show myself the same courtesy. I take darn good care of that kid, but my self-care doesn't always match up. It's to the point that I will spend 20 minutes slicing fruits and veggies, cooking, and cleaning up to make him a healthy meal from scratch three times a day and rather than make a double batch I'll eat cookies while he enjoys his meal. In my mind I think I'm treating myself, but I know full well that I'm really sabotaging myself.
I find my temptations fall into three categories.
- Sweet Foods/Meals: sugary cereals, doughnuts, sweet muffins, pancakes with candied fruit and whipped cream. These are dangerous because they pose as respectable meal options and I'll choose something sweet every time it's an option - even if it's the first thing I'm eating that day.
- Desserts/Treats: these are the most obvious offenders and a major weakness of mine. I love me some brownie fudge sundaes. Still, I can pass on these most of the time. What makes this category hard to break is my bad habit of having a "treat" after Leo goes to bed. I do it EVERY night. Cookies, or ice-cream - something. Something to mark the end of my day. It's a hard habit to break. I'm not even hungry, but I feel a compulsion to seek out sugar in the evening hours.
- Drinks: I'm shocked at how hard this one is for me - and it is hands down the hardest one. I didn't think this was a major weakness for me because we don't keep soda in the house - but we do keep lemonade and I love to pick up a vitamin water when I'm at the store. Since we don't keep soda in the house I love to order a coke with my meal at a restaurant "as a treat" and I can't pass up a Thai iced tea at my favorite Thai restaurants. Between meals I love love love to go out for coffee; the only problem is I don't even like coffee...unless it's diluted by milk and caramel sauce and topped with whipped cream. Don't even get me started on chocolate milk...
Disclaimer: I may make an exception when I'm in Pittsburgh to have some Brunton's Chocolate Milk (if you are in Western PA and have not tried this yet - go! You can thank me later).